December Writing

Dec 14

A quiet day in the office without much work.
I look back at my resolutions for this year.

• "Get a job"
  Done, but I'll need another one soon as the contract will end in April.
• "Finish the SAP course"
  Done, although afterwards my dad made my buy the subsequent intermediate course and I failed to finish in the requisite time. I guess I should still feel happy about finishing the resolution.
• "Finish the Python course"
  Not done - thankfully this thing doesn't have an expiry date.
• "Finish reading a book"
  Not done, unless you count Hellboy Vol. 1 as a book. Although to be honest I don't know why I wrote this resolution, as I find most self-improvement books aren't worth the cover-to-cover read. Might just count the comic as a book and call it a year.
• "Clear 24 heat (difficulty) in Hades"
  Abandoned. It's way too difficult and with my job I have no time to practice games that hard anymore. I did succeed in my alternate goal of beating the game (at low difficulty) in under 20 minutes, so that's that.

So my success rate is 2/5, but closer to 2/3 if I ignore the last two as bad goals. I'm disappointed, not because of the rate I'm succeeding my resolutions at, but because I feel I could be more ambitious with my resolutions. Yet if I add more, I might really dip hard in my success rate.


Dec 15
Okay, so I didn't post about it, but lately I've been thinking about two aspects of my life that I feel I really haven't sorted:

My social/dating life
If you gave my introversion a strength rating out of 100, I would score 95+ with ease. As an introvert, I make very few friends. The nice thing is the ones I do make tend to be close. But herein lies the problem: the few friends that I have made now are scattered about the planet. So as close as they might have been, I find myself rarely having people to confide in.

I was planning to take the effort to make some new friends this year, now that I'm done with college and am a 'proper adult' and all, but then this COVID thing happened. Now, thankfully, the country is on the road to recovery, with Phase 3 hitting on the 28th, so I think it's time to revisit the topic.

And, uh, dating. I do think I need to work a little bit on the platonic friend base first before I go there. Walk before running, the saying goes. Also I think I'm being influenced by my colleagues, who have been talking about OLD as of late (they're trying to find the socially awkward WFD specialist a partner). But I do figure that, like, half of the way my life has gone is because of one breakup almost 4 years ago. While not all the consequences were bad - I did get to reassess my life because of it - I don't think I should live in the shadow of that event forever.

My hobbies
Despite my spending over a third of my life on my hobbies, I actually don't think I've fully settled on what they are. As in: in social situations, I'm not particularly stoked to reveal to others that I draw or write, as a lot of that is pretty personal; I'm also not really stoked to mention gaming as it tends to become a social label and I consider myself much more than just my games. I would like to say I attend the gym but I don't actually go frequently enough; same with reading.