Why? Because Keel is a badass and I'm sad Quake Champions ended up a buggy mess of a game.
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Personal blog, kind of started on a whim. I like to write, so why not? It's a much more readable format than ranting about my life to my mates on messenger.
Talking about that life.
Not so long ago I recovered a bit of...something. Depression? Anxiety? I do not know. The voices came, telling me that I suck, I'm a failure, that nobody cares, that I deserve to lose all my friends and family and be lonely forever. I fought back. Took me 2 bloody years, and I got held back 2 semesters in uni because of it. But I fought like a mad dog against the black dog until I came out on top.
Now I'm better. Unfortunately I really did lose most of my friends. Didn't really fall out with them or anything, just stopped talking to a lot of them. Most of them have graduated, too, and uni is all new faces I don't recognize anymore. I don't really have time to make new friends either, given how busy I get with college. So happy as I am, I'm kind of a loner now. Guess that's why I started this blog.
Oh and my ex from first year still lives in the next room. That's motivation to graduate, if anything. Didn't really want to move because other than her presence my room is great. She doesn't bother me either, although she's on like her
Other than that, everything is good. I've gained new purpose, new hobbies, grades are kind of better (at least I'm not failing, right?) and I'm enjoying living. Self-esteem and intimacy issues aren't where I want them to be, but they're slowly getting better too. In a sense, suffering from whatever it was may be a blessing in the long run, in that I will end up a better person than if I hadn't suffered.
Oh and I'm in business school, if anyone cares. HRM major. I'm not sure why employment problems come as enjoyable to me but they do. Might have something to do with having a business exec for a father.
Uh okay, hobbies. It's about to get real clear why I'm a big loner, strap in.
- I play video games, although not much while I'm busy with school. Favorite games tend to be Hack & Slash (Diablo, Grim Dawn, Bastion, etc.) I used to play a lot of Warframe and Guild Wars 2 and reminisce about those days sometimes, but I don't play them anymore for a number of varying reasons.
- Been thinking about starting up a video game studio as a side "gig". Chug my creative juices, ship some cool indie concepts, make people smile, send profits to a good charity. It's not really a gig as it makes me no money but it's a dream and I want to make it happen one day. I've been researching new games and planning new concepts in my spare time.
- I read when I get the time. I always have a ton of books to get through and will never finish half of them.
- I'm a casual fitness dude, albeit still pretty weak. Would love to get more hardcore but travelling to gym is pain and I'm always busy.
- I used to play the sax professionally. I brought my horn to uni but I don't get much time to play. Listening to music and paying what's due to support good artists keeps me happier nowadays.
- I used to draw as well, thinking about picking it up again.
- I watch comedy infrequently, mostly Conan and The Daily Show. I'm also watching the Azur Lane anime right now, but it's mostly because I play the game and I don't consider myself an anime fan by any means. (The only other anime I have ever watched is Fairy Tail.)
- Oh and I write, of course. I journal regularly, almost daily, check my mental health, reflect on my life, put together to-dos.
Edit (Oct 26): Updated post with the Keel picture. Updated hobbies to include my TV shows. Updated my ex's relationship status to 5th (lol).
