Beyond Worried

Can't sleep.

The pandemic has me beyond worried. I thought I would be safer from the whole ordeal, here in Singapore. But at 4 PM on Friday the Prime Minister just announced what is effectively a soft lockdown (he simply refuses to call it such). In short, the economy is dead for 30 days, and I will have no jobs to apply to.

There must be a plan, a solution of some sort.

I've been examining applying for an online master's, but as of my searching last night I haven't found anything of substance. Most online graduate degrees of value require 2+ years of work experience, a decently high GPA, letters of recommendation, an essay…it's not looking good.

I keep searching into the night. Udemy has a number of courses, all 80-90% off. I buy two units on full stack development. The way I see coding now, it's a trade, a way to stay alive if my HR career never gets off the ground. (I'll probably buy a few more later today, given how cheap they are and because software dev pays more than full stack dev.) Plus, there's also the SAP course my dad wanted me to take. I should sign up for the next level.

Frustrated, I open Path of Exile and The Jim Rutt Show. Rutt calls the COVID-19 pandemic "the worst shock to American society since WWII". What does that mean for me? I do not know. The world is so uncertain, and I don't know my place in it.